Time

I know I pursue time
Like a free bird
And yours is like a captive
In a golden cage
With an era of its own
Am willing to wait
Come what may
Leaving it to fate
All you have to say
Is, " Darling I Love You"


When you want to be alone
Analyzing thoughts that were woven
And beautifully crystal
I want you to share them with me
When your silence speaks yours words
I want to have ears
Than can listen to the unknown
Its time again that reigns
And has been reigning for years


I know I pursue time
Like a free breeze
Like I have never had for
Anyone in the life I lived
The lone self in me
Beckons for a migration
Into a time zone
That belongs to you
It culminates into the spheres
That has to last
For the many coming years...


Tell me for I know not
How to bound myself
Let alone the Time I call my own
My patience withers
And wilts with Time
Should you grant me what I wish for
Or is it Time again that
Shall answer for you....




Kanch

A Note !

A slight fear of some kind
So would it be fare
To tell you what's on my mind
Could I actually dare ?
A deep longing to get u out
Of the pain
And all the doubts
That somewhere went in vain
A stolen gaze at you
Without a hope or two
A smile on my lips
A slight tap on my fingertips
A small attempt to make you smile
Even for a little while
Some more time with you
Without a hope or two
Would u feel offended
On what I write
Just now I don't seem to know
What's wrong and right
I can do nothing more nor less
Can I help you
To get out of this mess
I can say its gonna be fine
But don't really know how to define
Perhaps these words would be hidden somewhere
And maybe even If I did want
I would not be able to share
Of what it means for me
To have to see
You in pain
May be the extents I know
Not how to show
Yet I 'd do anything to make you smile
Even for a little while
Some more time with you
Without a hope or two

Sometimes you may think
Without a space or blink
I keep hovering round your bed
Just to keep an eyes on what's there
Just to let you know I care
And sometimes feel like watching you
Like a distant view
Letting someone else play the game
Its just not my name
Old times were good
New ones will be better
Just keep a happy mood
And let not yourself scatter
Cause when u'd fall
I would want to hold you back
And now I wish you would never have to call
That you would never have to fall
A stolen gaze again at you
Without a hope or two

Right now rest your mind in peace
For it has been abandoned for long
Let your heart get back all the pieces
And sing your favorite song
Dance to the tunes you wanna make
Jive to routines you wanna break
Freedom is what calls upon you now
Worry not...fear not as to how
Roads and ways will be built on it own
You are on your own but not alone
I may tread closer if not with you
Again without a hope or two....

Goodbyes!

Let me make it up

To you tonight

Let me take your hand

And tell you sorry

That we had to fight

Let me close my eyes

And see your face again

The hurt that I caused

And all the pain

Let me seep through

What your mind has to say

From the day we parted

Till today

Let me hold my thoughts

While I try to read yours

Those which were ruptured

Are beyond any cures

Let me sit down for a while

And bask in the glory

of the times

I made u smile

Let me walk the beach

I walked holding your hand

And watch the waters wipe out

Our names from the sand

Let me hear the last song

To which we danced

For the first time

Let me relish the taste

Of our first kiss

And preserve your smell

Like the perfume that I'd miss

Let me for once

Close my eyes again

And see the face that is

Fading away all my pain

Let me drop this tear

To your name

And along with it

Drop your claim...

This feeling inside
Feels like something has died
I was well off ignorant
Why did they teach me
What is right and what is wrong ?
What did they want me to see?
What did they want me to know ?
What do they still want me to show?
Haven't they ravaged me enough
Made me fragile when I was so tough ?
What do they want now when its all done ?
Times have flown and my heart is sour
The remaining pieces are still lost in the dark
I searched so hard to fix it back
I am lost in dungeons that pull me hard
Why did they use me when I was a misuse?
Why did they shun me and left me to abuse?
Why did they come forth and run back again ?
Why did they make me come alive from dead?
And killed me yet again...
Why did they say it all and meant no word?
Why did they show me the other side of the world ?
Why did they? Why did they ?
The answers are yet to unfold
And when I wanna pursue them
Its of no use I am told
Am tired of running from the shadows of the past
Engulf me or throw me aside
These feelings are so dead inside...
Will kill me... it will decide


Kanch

There is so much this night can give us
You and me is what i ask for
Loving you and touching you
Where I ve never before...
This night when sleep plays
Hide and seek with me
At its best even during days
You is all i want to see
This night when the stars go blaze
With the dances if the fire
It burns well for as i gaze
And try to cool my burning desire
This heart knows not how to beat
When it doesn't hear your breath
This night has no option but to miss
How beautifully you and I kiss...
This night is restless just like me
Delusions building like a fortress
On top of a beautiful hill
Come along as I tread harder
And you will...
But this night can it make
It so much easier for you and me
This night so pretty today
While you rest so deep
And I get no sleep :)

Kanch

Breaking Me!

"Won't it ever be ok again"...
Your questions pierced my heart
More than my ears
Brought across an unknown pain
I had not faced in years

"But where did I go wrong" , you cried
"It wasn't just meant to be", I tried
To explain why,
I made u cry
Even after I just didn't wanna try!

"I ve loved you like no one, nor I ever will" , you decided
"And I won't love ..nor will ever love you the same", I confided
I wanted to explain how
Things couldn't be ok now !

"You r leaving me empty, you ve finished me", you explained
"You decided never to complete me", I exclaimed!
I wanted to leave
And you didn't want to believe.

"Its over now... I can't take it anymore", I walked away
"But what about the promises you made", you say
I looked you in the eye
You turned away.. You had your reply!

Now & Then

I was crossing the streets the other day
When I saw u walking from the opposite way.
The steps u took were small and humble,
Your lips moved as if they were about to mumble
Your eyes were searching for someone...
You tilted your head back again and again
As you walked past me as if I was no one,
It brought back to me all the pain!

Then :


After so many years of unknown tryst...
With your initials carved on my wrist.
I couldn't recognize myself in your eyes
That day when u left
There seemed no existence ...As if someone had separated me from my breath
 
Now :

My gaze fixed at you I was blocking the way for many
You had brushed past me
As if u had nvr known me
I smiled at reasons I couldn't figure out
Rest assured I wasn't in any doubt
I crossed the streets that day
And still dint turn back when I saw u again the opposite way...