life!

Reasons which hold me back
Differences that set us apart
Qualms that make us cry
Sorrows that hold our relationship!
Wow! What a recipe!
And how much i love the ingredients
Hurts that never heal
Lips that never break the seal
Dreams that haunt me
Eyes that dread to dream any more
Heart that bleeds with scars
Untouched,untamed in unquite hours
Moments that have lost with time
Time flying away like a free bird
Undesirable ends...where do they meet?
Perhaps i know...its my life

The question Lies….How many times

How many times you thought you could escape the pain
And how many times you saved your emotions
Going in vain
How many times could to stop the blood oozing out?
How many times you could clear your doubts?
How many times could you smile after having shed tears?
How many times could you calm down?
After having faced your fears?
How many times….???
The question lies…
Could you dare?
Could you care?
Could you justify?
What went wrong?
Why did it go wrong?
Were you at fault or as some one told me today?
You fell prey –
“A victim of circumstances”
How many times you believed …
You thought you were right
Yet thrown back into your shell
Once again for a lonely fight
Where you are the looser and the winner is you
And yet when one would decipher
How many times did they see you?
How many times did you shout?
How many times you cried out loud?
How many times were you heard?
How many times were you scarred?
You were called a cur…
You were trampled…
How many times did you take efforts?
How many times did you struggle?
How many times could you say.. “ I can”
And when you couldn’t you blamed His plan
The question still lies…
How many times did you try…???
How many times I asked..??
And how many times did I cry...

resistance...

When the sand
Keeps slipping
From my hand
I clench my fist…
Resistance playing fowl
A battle ... a tryst
When the tears
From my eyes flow
Because of my tears
I shut them tight
I dare not run
Yet…I fare not fight!
When the cold
Wind hits me hard
It tends to mould
I turn liquid. Take shapes
My form distorted
My soul escapes
To transitions…..
Unknown undisclosed destinations
When I stand alone on the way
With no hand
To hold on to
I look up for rainbow
On a rainy day
Why doesn’t it rain it all ?
The clouds do now show…
Do they call ?
When I write this
I still love about
My heart subsided
In every beat, a single doubt
When will I be happy?
When shall I live ?
When shall I define?
What could be mine…
When… can I expect them to give
When they took it all
When will the questions be answered?
Prayers heard… I look up for a rainbow to ask
When shall the sand
Stop slipping from my hand..

where was I ??

The darkness seemed to call upon
The beautiful stars and the silver sphere
The serene atmosphere suited the blowing breeze
Which chilled the grass making it cold
Everybody rested in their nests
The paths seemed to be empty and desolate
The black beauty of the sky
Ran away from the approaching dawn
you were siting motionless
with nothing but for loneliness
which seemed like those desolate paths
which gave you company
there was no one around
except for the shining stars
that spoke their own verses
you listened to them
as if you coukd hear them speak
your instant look which was constantly
towards each blink the moon gave
it appeared like a silver face
that cried a black tear
with every single motion of your eyelid
you could feel something rest upon your body
the cold wind seemed to make you
feel uneasy, yet you were there
the song of the late night bird
surrounded the night where nothing coukd be heard
the dead leaves fluttered and flowed away
the night shone with the stars
and everything seemed so dry
except for the tear
that feel from your eye
everybody... the stars, teh moon, the leaves
wondered what made you cry!
and yet YOU kept wondering
with this beautiful night beside you
where was I ???