This feeling inside
Feels like something has died
I was well off ignorant
Why did they teach me
What is right and what is wrong ?
What did they want me to see?
What did they want me to know ?
What do they still want me to show?
Haven't they ravaged me enough
Made me fragile when I was so tough ?
What do they want now when its all done ?
Times have flown and my heart is sour
The remaining pieces are still lost in the dark
I searched so hard to fix it back
I am lost in dungeons that pull me hard
Why did they use me when I was a misuse?
Why did they shun me and left me to abuse?
Why did they come forth and run back again ?
Why did they make me come alive from dead?
And killed me yet again...
Why did they say it all and meant no word?
Why did they show me the other side of the world ?
Why did they? Why did they ?
The answers are yet to unfold
And when I wanna pursue them
Its of no use I am told
Am tired of running from the shadows of the past
Engulf me or throw me aside
These feelings are so dead inside...
Will kill me... it will decide


Kanch

There is so much this night can give us
You and me is what i ask for
Loving you and touching you
Where I ve never before...
This night when sleep plays
Hide and seek with me
At its best even during days
You is all i want to see
This night when the stars go blaze
With the dances if the fire
It burns well for as i gaze
And try to cool my burning desire
This heart knows not how to beat
When it doesn't hear your breath
This night has no option but to miss
How beautifully you and I kiss...
This night is restless just like me
Delusions building like a fortress
On top of a beautiful hill
Come along as I tread harder
And you will...
But this night can it make
It so much easier for you and me
This night so pretty today
While you rest so deep
And I get no sleep :)

Kanch

Breaking Me!

"Won't it ever be ok again"...
Your questions pierced my heart
More than my ears
Brought across an unknown pain
I had not faced in years

"But where did I go wrong" , you cried
"It wasn't just meant to be", I tried
To explain why,
I made u cry
Even after I just didn't wanna try!

"I ve loved you like no one, nor I ever will" , you decided
"And I won't love ..nor will ever love you the same", I confided
I wanted to explain how
Things couldn't be ok now !

"You r leaving me empty, you ve finished me", you explained
"You decided never to complete me", I exclaimed!
I wanted to leave
And you didn't want to believe.

"Its over now... I can't take it anymore", I walked away
"But what about the promises you made", you say
I looked you in the eye
You turned away.. You had your reply!

Now & Then

I was crossing the streets the other day
When I saw u walking from the opposite way.
The steps u took were small and humble,
Your lips moved as if they were about to mumble
Your eyes were searching for someone...
You tilted your head back again and again
As you walked past me as if I was no one,
It brought back to me all the pain!

Then :


After so many years of unknown tryst...
With your initials carved on my wrist.
I couldn't recognize myself in your eyes
That day when u left
There seemed no existence ...As if someone had separated me from my breath
 
Now :

My gaze fixed at you I was blocking the way for many
You had brushed past me
As if u had nvr known me
I smiled at reasons I couldn't figure out
Rest assured I wasn't in any doubt
I crossed the streets that day
And still dint turn back when I saw u again the opposite way...

कई सालों के बाद आयी एक बहार

ज़िन्दगी बेजान सी लगती थी तब

आपके आने से हो गया है प्यार 

हमे ज़िन्दगी से अब...

- कांच 

I can't be with you...

When I close my eyes
And your thoughts pass by
A tinge of hurt...
Comes wading from the sky
I might be strong
I might just be wrong,

I 'd choose not to face

This hurt and this phase..

There are moments when you

Wanna break the door
And enter into me
And I keep staring at the floor

I do not want you to see

How numb this state of mine

Where nothing could affect

And no one could be fine

You keep asking me to come close

And all i do is run away

And the hurt seems more

"As I remember our "just one day

Don't call me when

I don't wanna hear

Don't cry when

I don't wanna see your tear

Don't blame me 

Cause I'm already blamed

Don't look at me with hopes

Cause I am already ill named

I got no ties to hold onto

Someday I will bid farewell 

Just like that !!

All I will keep in me is you...     
Just know that...

I cannot be with you

-K

The Canvas

I sat upon your thoughts

And seemed to loose my way

The way you stroked your brushes

On the paint filled canvas that day...

The image you drew

Reflected me in you

The colors you painted

Seemed my heart was tainted...

U drew my face on the wall

Distorted Disfigured and very small

Yet the black and the white mixed to grey...

On the paint filled canvas that day...

U tried too hard to paint something new!

Each time you did...it was me you drew

My image stuck in your mind

You did'nt have a choice to rewind

From what we had left behind.

U wanted to mix the shades that way

On the paint filled canvas that day....