Just like that ...random series 3

Another mundane tuesday...who feels like "visiting" lectures when one cant yet get over the waves, the music, the vodka, the beer that once so desirable devoured in the last two days and nights. Its like someone jolting me from the most beautifuk dream i ever had to the harsh reality of my life. Strange co-incidences : I feel lighter (not that my weight permits)...my heart feels better and safer. I feel protected and shielded with the care and love of people who understand the true meaning of friendship. A lot of negagtivity filled me when i walked into the Tavera that carried 11 budding managers (we toughly squeezed ourselves on our way thorugh the two and half hours journey) and i walked out a free spirit (i guess thats what alchohol does to you) ;) who had puked and puked and puked and flushed all the dirt that my mind carried. Just like someone pressing the f5 button (refresh)
"I need a break...i need a break" was the mantra before I could know the real 'jaap' for my heart was to be "i need a make"....- a make up for my soul, a patch that had to be sewed. A hurt that would leave its scar but would make me smile through the passage of time. I knew that my past held incidents and people I regretted but someone told me " Dont regret what happened...they were your decisions and if you respect your being you would respect them too"....Tough philosophies to digest but trust me they are worth a million dollars. "I dont regret no more"
A lot of bad things happen with a lot of people around the world. They face the worst of events and yet move on with colours in life. They come out with such beautiful smiles seeing through the toughest times.  Today morning i read something (i dont remember the exact words..it went sumthing like that)
"Walk the world as if you rule the world
or else dont care who does and yet walk on again..
thats called attitude...."
I always listened to what my heart told me was right, even though  they turned my life Topsy turvy. But this day thanks to my people back home and here in my life i know i can sail through tsunami waves and the toughest sun that can ever shine on my head.
Just like what i read on Tavi's t shirt ....."life just got more colurful"

I look through the broken window pane
the surrounded vapor of the late night rain...
the drops trickling down like tears in my eyes
the thunder sounds like some powerful sighs!!
I look through the broken window pane,
And my mind and soul goes insane,
Its raining inside, revealing my pain,
Want to outburst but then sounds lame
I look through the window pane
its wet and slippery outside
my souls cursed to damnation
crucified with fake salvation
The window pane’s broken like my dreams
submerged deep in the screams
surrounded in the valves that beat hard
the pain and pane both scarred

Ps thank you Ravi for your valuable inputs... 

random series 2

pating attention in the class...Am I??
Yet again the jazz plays on my mind. Reminiscences of last night's bit and pieces..the enchanting voice of James Blunt..."You're beautiful"...and the sexy curvish voice of Presley. I slept at 2 30 am yesterday...pretty early for a nocturnal breed like me. Are you enlarging your eyes at the words "nocturnal" or "breed" :)
Perceptions...
Sorry dude!! I got no clue of what you yacking about! I got no fucking idea about what "goal setting","benchmarking" or "recruitment"means....
My straight cut funda of getting work doneis "DO the work moron or get your ass kicked!!" Thats what i have been doing when i need those rascals to work for me !! (Am really mean ) ;)
Someones trying hard yet again to crash into the walls of my mind. Prisoner!!! No fucking holiday for the past 3 weeks!!
JAMMED!! CRASHED!! CRACKED!!
You think its gonna stick on to the saturated layer of my mind?? Evaporation : A sexy process desigened by God :)
Don Mclean playing on my mind ...starry starry nights..lovely classics they made those days...who cares ?? How many people here know who William Blake was or if John Denver ever
ever sang Annie's Song...or what metaphysical means!! Have they heard of Beowulf or may be the wrath-haunting possesive freaky poetry by Robert Browning. Avalanche of unassembles freaky thoughts.
What are yu rambling about dude??? BOSS!!!! :P
Back to square one..enought diversions for as minimum of 15 mins...still 45 minutes for me to be free...independant not yet!!

blank....

No deeds to count, no words to talk
No place to run, no roads to walk
Where does it end, you wouldnt know when it began
Falling short of time and efforts, how much you can...
No tunes to humm, no fashion to flaunt
No sarcasm to teach you, no jeer, no taunt
You still wonder where does it end?
A voice from deep within says it would all depend!
No tears to fall, no smiles to cheer
No laughter in in air..no damn..no fear
Wondering yet again where does it all end ?
The fret, the pain, in what is your life spent??

"Young Man"

What does thou stare at young man
The art that beautifies the wall
or the heart that over heard the call

What does thou think about young man
The way that changed your life
The day you choose to strife

What does thine dream consist of young man
Do they have a base so strong
The might to be proven wrong

Whom does thine eyes search for young man
The eyes that rested on you
Or the figure that distorted your view

What does thou heart linger for young man
The beat, the rhythm, the jazz of your soul
To finish you or to complete your whole

Young man, thine talks are strange
Thine everlasting shine shall not change
When does thou rest,
What does thy hold
Ready to melt young man...
Art thou ready to mould??

Through the gaps of the falling curtains, my mind escapes to the green lush peeping from behind. Far beyond when the people around me are concerned about the nationality of Kannes and Adam Smith and the theories they preached...I am way out of their touch.
"The Kant principals is known as ...????" WHO CARES???
I wish to run to lands where where these people are unheard of (my class is no diff..no ones heard of them). Sounds like a fairytale...nah!!!!!!
Ahem Ahem Descriptive theory...describe what dude!!!
"Tell me one example of absolute...." errrr I beg your pardon ....did u say.....?? Blank....Boom...Kant.....(curse you mom)...Morality....and me the immoral or the immortal one ??
Khatri breaks the chain of unanswered questions, we gain a point...a round of questions again ????
"What utilitarism??" (did i even spell that correct?)...
Whats ... errrrr.... i forgot again!!
Do i know whats going on ?? Back home dad once said " Betu padhai karna and acche marks lana" (study hard and gain good marks). Right here the devil rules my egoism (ahh another kants coined term)...Claps!! Enlightened egoism..new terms..wow!! I talk about ethics, being ethical..non ethical..oops i meant unethical.
Someones trying real real hard to enter the walls of my mind.
Bang..bang..boom...bamm!!
"Business activites...Consequntalist...Non consequentialist...."
OOuch its Priya now ...Prakash next...yikes!! Me..no ways !!
"Kanchi what you busy with...???"
"Umm sir notes..."
"Fine"
"The three maxims of..................."??(oops i forgot again)

"Two types of justice" - Leave the class or let me runnnn.....
Rude... thats the way i am ..dude!!
The right answer is distributive and procedural...
I observe him trying hard to convince a bunch of idiots like me..." every action of mine is .........." (did i forget again !!)
huh!! huh!! aarrrgggghhhhhhh!!
ahh!! did he say feminism theory vs masculine thoery?? My ears up....
Differences.!! Did someone just say sex?? Yikes !! Dude get a life!!
Survival is it ?? Understanding??? Susatainability Development ?? Phewww..tough words to swallow...leave apart digesting them :)
Now where did deforestation come into picture???? ARrrrrrGGGHHHH!!!
SUMIT SHUUTTTT UPPPP!!!
Now whose messaging me...idea!!!!
HUH!!
man is independant...women interdependant....aha !! is it ???
suckss!! sucks!!
Claps again!! game Over!!
Back to slides....
Case Studies...
Khatri shot again... ;)
Saturation level accomplishes!!
Over and OUT

Mirage

Two ways

Right or wrong;

In deepest thougts

For how long?

Two faces

Black or white
Two phases
Mourn or fight!

Two truths

Death and life;
Two delusions
Survive or strife!

Two emotions
Love and hate

Two worries,
Fall a prey or create a bait~

Two emblems
Faith and destiny...
Helping to survive the
Throngs between you and me!

Two extremes...

Joy and pain

That leads to what called

Success and vain!

Life twinfolds itself
Into various such phases...
The human heart and mind
Races and races

At the fingertips of what

Called the peak of "mirage"