Through the gaps of the falling curtains, my mind escapes to the green lush peeping from behind. Far beyond when the people around me are concerned about the nationality of Kannes and Adam Smith and the theories they preached...I am way out of their touch.
"The Kant principals is known as ...????" WHO CARES???
I wish to run to lands where where these people are unheard of (my class is no diff..no ones heard of them). Sounds like a fairytale...nah!!!!!!
Ahem Ahem Descriptive theory...describe what dude!!!
"Tell me one example of absolute...." errrr I beg your pardon ....did u say.....?? Blank....Boom...Kant.....(curse you mom)...Morality....and me the immoral or the immortal one ??
Khatri breaks the chain of unanswered questions, we gain a point...a round of questions again ????
"What utilitarism??" (did i even spell that correct?)...
Whats ... errrrr.... i forgot again!!
Do i know whats going on ?? Back home dad once said " Betu padhai karna and acche marks lana" (study hard and gain good marks). Right here the devil rules my egoism (ahh another kants coined term)...Claps!! Enlightened egoism..new terms..wow!! I talk about ethics, being ethical..non ethical..oops i meant unethical.
Someones trying real real hard to enter the walls of my mind.
Bang..bang..boom...bamm!!
"Business activites...Consequntalist...Non consequentialist...."
OOuch its Priya now ...Prakash next...yikes!! Me..no ways !!
"Kanchi what you busy with...???"
"Umm sir notes..."
"Fine"
"The three maxims of..................."??(oops i forgot again)

"Two types of justice" - Leave the class or let me runnnn.....
Rude... thats the way i am ..dude!!
The right answer is distributive and procedural...
I observe him trying hard to convince a bunch of idiots like me..." every action of mine is .........." (did i forget again !!)
huh!! huh!! aarrrgggghhhhhhh!!
ahh!! did he say feminism theory vs masculine thoery?? My ears up....
Differences.!! Did someone just say sex?? Yikes !! Dude get a life!!
Survival is it ?? Understanding??? Susatainability Development ?? Phewww..tough words to swallow...leave apart digesting them :)
Now where did deforestation come into picture???? ARrrrrrGGGHHHH!!!
SUMIT SHUUTTTT UPPPP!!!
Now whose messaging me...idea!!!!
HUH!!
man is independant...women interdependant....aha !! is it ???
suckss!! sucks!!
Claps again!! game Over!!
Back to slides....
Case Studies...
Khatri shot again... ;)
Saturation level accomplishes!!
Over and OUT

Mirage

Two ways

Right or wrong;

In deepest thougts

For how long?

Two faces

Black or white
Two phases
Mourn or fight!

Two truths

Death and life;
Two delusions
Survive or strife!

Two emotions
Love and hate

Two worries,
Fall a prey or create a bait~

Two emblems
Faith and destiny...
Helping to survive the
Throngs between you and me!

Two extremes...

Joy and pain

That leads to what called

Success and vain!

Life twinfolds itself
Into various such phases...
The human heart and mind
Races and races

At the fingertips of what

Called the peak of "mirage"

moksha

they say.."i dont know much and me"


i am lost in the deserts of time..
i know not where i go
does it lead me to my doom
or does it lead to my home
where do the prayers locked on my lips flow
where do they fall and pray
locked in as if for centuries something me looks for "moksha.."
am i a cheat bot
or do i represent the truth of eternity
just as i said...
they said "i dont know much and me

"Happy Kiki To You"

Its just another birthday..yeah yeah you might be thinking this chick is crazy. Instead of studying HRM (the exam that i have today am busy posting a blog on this stupid blogspot of mine.) Urge!! As u call it...
Just recived a call from dad...he dint call at night (probably thinking his little devil would be fast asleep by 12!!!). But then you see hes "dad" and they always know things better than you. As a kid i had a million questions as to "why did he stay away from home for months (I later realised he was a merchant navy captain!!)", "why he would take me along for his trips abroad","why couldnt he stay back home like other dads" or "why the dolphin was bigger than any other fish i saw". :)
Yes that was me at 6!!
The very few first words that i learnt to speak were "darwajja band" (the door is closed) and "pappa gaya" (daddy's gone) {infact i now remember my mom telling me my first word was "papa"}. As a kid i remember crying each time dad left for his long trips (i literally held his photo to my chest!! TOO filmy i know!! But that was me at 7). I have a vague rememberance of me at the age of 4(i was cute and heavy!!) dad holding me on his shoulders and walking the Great Wall Of China (I 'm not kidding!! I have really been there!! :))... He still thinks i was the best baby :)
Each time dad took me and mom (the best!!) for a new trip my first question would be "Hum Singapore jaa rahe hain naa?? (We are going to singapore arnt we)..and with that cross curved smile he would patiently say "yes" (trust me even if we were heading towards taiwan or ne where) and i would be content tat wow its another trip to the bliss of chocolates and lotta goodies!! :)....The ships used to be vast, huge and my dads cabin the BEST (hes a captain duh!!). I remember fighting with him when he had to go for his night duties (yeah thats a hefty job i must say) and crying out to sleep with mom who consoled me dads gone to sail the ship and all the other fantastic cooked up stories about "Sindband the Sailor" (trust me i was a big fan of Alif Laila....if anyone remembers it at all ).
Dad finally succumbed to all my assembled tears and decided to call it quits when i was 11!! And then came the phase when i would be hovered with questions like "why isnt he going back ??", "no more goodies from abroad??" "No more trips to singapore(my fav destination till date!!)" and then the realization "DADS STAYING HOME WITH ME" :)... At 22 today niether he or me regretted this decision of his. Hes the closest person to my heart today and the best thing about him he has never changed in these two decades of my life...(did i mention jes become a little fat ??) Today morning it was a conversation of just 10 seconds as he wished me on my birthday as hes been doing for the ;ast so many years (yeah yeah am aging!!!).
It wasnt a "Happy Birthday to you"... for him it will always be his 4 years old daughter trying to imitate him "Happy Kiki to you Betu"

imaze gaze: "FAKE"

imaze gaze: "FAKE"

"FAKE"

My fall is due
On its way very soon
Life seems a curse
With no hopes..no boon
Chained in desires
That promise unfulfillment
My heart seeks solace
A place
To vent....
My flights curbed
Am termed "fake"
The weight too much
Enough for me to break
My truth questioned
My life "uncertain"
My blood turns cold
I fail to mould...
Wheres my pain ?
Am i numb
Am i dumb?
I am wrong???
I am wrong??!
I am wrong!!!
Mistakes from my past
Repeated in my present
The words repeated
The action repeated
"You are fake"
My falls come
I find i am numb
I am finally broken
"The fake mask overthrown"

Ashaant

A ringing bell
In the temple
What does it tell ?
The chaste fire
Burning desire
Ends with my pyre...
'Mantras' being chanted
Idols kept slanted
Words are haunted...
Sermons seem fake
What He makes
Is what He breaks...
The marble tiled floor
The wooden door
My wound still sore!
People mumbling prayers..
Is He the one who cares?
And we the one who dare
Children running round
Barefooted on the ground
Blood to be found
Minds that think
Eyes that fail to blink
The bell goes 'tink - a - link'
My mind turns to the bell
In the temple
Ringing loud to tell
'There are more doubts
Than prayers they shout
Your heart is - ASHANT'